One night Carlo disciplined Xielo because of disobedience, she cried but asked for forgiveness. When she was feeling better she got ready for bed, we were about to sleep and say goodnight to each other when Xielo said ” You know Tatay, you really hurt my feelings”.
We were eating dinner in a fast food restaurant. Carlo was checking his tablet for a text message when Xielo said ” Tatay don’t use your phone your hands are soiled!”
Carlo and I looked at each other, got our phone to google search the meaning of the word soiled.
We were at the mall after the holiday because a lot of the items in every shop are on sale. Carlo was looking at some
of the pants that he likes in Forever 21 while I was with Xielo and
Xiana waiting for him. Then Xielo said to me ” You know mom you are so sexy and beautiful but you need to buy these kinds of clothes (pointing to the clothes displayed at the store). ” I was speechless.
When I was in college I developed a habit that whenever new year comes I would have quality time with God and seek Him through His word on what I can claim to live by for the whole year. Instead of new year’s resolutions I would study my verse and list the things that I need to do or remember for the whole year through that Bible verse. Thus my year verse was born. This is a verse/verses from the Bible that I will hold on to whatever is happening in my life. May it be a rebuke, a reminder, a promise, or something that i need to learn. I would hold on to it until I can go through my whole year.
This year, my year verse is in Luke 2:52 “And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and man.” (NIV). Of course, I want to be like Jesus but I want to be more like Him this year by focusing on some areas of my life. I want to grow in being physically fit. I want to be healthy and fit even as I get older and be with my children as they grow. I want to grow emotionally by stepping up in serving our community in IGSL where I am a missionary. Lastly, I want to grow more spiritually through prayer.
Whenever I am pregnant I would gain 15-20 pounds but eventually lose it once I start breastfeeding. My last one for our second child, Xiana, I lost more. I actually went down to my weight pre-dinosaur era (a.k.a. College days). But once my baby starts weaning, the weight starts coming back fast. I am in my heaviest again for the second time. So I am announcing it here to be accountable to you that I will start to lose weight again. I did it when I gave birth to my first child and lost 40 pounds. Hoping that I can do it again this time.
After giving birth to Xiana in 2014, I was on a leave as a missionary to become a full-time mom. I would help the school once in a while but on project basis only. But this year I am stepping up to help more. I have been thinking of writing stories about our school. Since I became a missionary or started working at IGSL, I sometimes wonder where does my college degree in mass communications fall. I know God is sovereign, but there are times that I think maybe it was just a way for me to go to college and become a Christian there but that I would never use whatever I learned from college. This year I think God is opening an opportunity for me to use it. I know I am not that good but I think our school doesn’t have a choice because I am the only one who is interested to do it.
Our school has a yearly prayer and fasting. I have never participated since they started it because I was either pregnant or breastfeeding. Since Xiana is weaning this year I am going to do it. I know this will be hard but because I want to grow in my prayer life, I think fasting is the best way to start.
I am excited with what this year holds for me and my family, but most specially I am excited about how I can be one step closer to God at the end of this year if I will be faithful with my year verse.
How about you? Do you have new year resolutions or some things that you do at the beginning of the year? Maybe you can share it with me so I can learn from you.
It has been hard for Xielo not seeing her friend KK on campus and not playing with her often (Her friend moved out of campus) . These past few weeks we’ve been into some up and down of emotions. We saw a lot of crying over simple things, being sad and some disobedience. So we have been disciplining her quite a lot. I can say that it was not the best mother and daughter kind of weeks. Maybe she is having a separation anxiety and that’s how she was coping up on missing her friend.
But last Friday when I was giving her a bath before going to school she said “Mom my classmate was eating rice and egg and he is using his hands. I told him to stop eating and use his spoon and fork and then he was so mad at me.” Then she started laughing and I was laughing with her too.
We were still talking and giggling then she said, you know mom I like you today.
David was 14-15 years old when he killed Goliath and was 25 years old when he was annointed by Samuel. He was 33 yrs old when he finally became King.
He waited a long time before the fulfillment of God’s promise for him to rule Israel. I realized many times when we are asking God for His will we want Him to tell us immediately. And when we already know what it is, sometimes we want it to happen right away. Then we will be discouraged or would doubt God about it if it is taking so long to happen. David went through a lot before He became King and through that waiting he became the man after God’s own heart.
We lost something that we thought was God’s will for us. We thought we are already doing what He has called us to do. Then through David I realized that we are just on the journey going to His promise, to His real calling. If this journey on waiting will make us the person after God’s own heart I am willing to wait and pursue the journey.
Perfect timing is the key on God’s will.
Woke up late yesterday so I prepared breakfast and Xielo to school like the Flash. I need to put Xiana for a nap so I can prepare and go to a meeting with our school’s leadership team. I had a hard time putting her for a nap and when she finally did I r got my bag, rushed to the meeting and run to the office. At the meeting they were talking about schedules so I opened my bag to get my tablet to check my schedule. Instead I saw a foldable potty chair, wipes, Diaper, used Diaper and Biscuit crumbs. I got the wrong bag. I handed the potty chair to Kuya Eric AGUSTIN (one of my boss) and said this is my schedule.
Tried so hard not to cross paths with you.
I was so successful avoiding you in college.
I made sure that you were not part of my job when I was working.
Lo and behold you are back into my life.
I guess you are here to stay.
I will not only go through you again once, but twice.
As Celine Dion said , it’s all coming back to me now.
Oh math how do I love thee?